I was able to get out of bed before Carson this morning. It was wonderful having some personal time alone. I don't get much of that and usually Carson wakes up pretty early and then I have to drag myself out of bed to keep up with him. This morning gave me some time to read the Word and to reflect on our lives in peace and quiet. It was much more productive than usual.
The big thing I've learned this year is to let God lead and I've been feeling his direction more than ever in my life. Josh and I are in the process of simplifying our lives. This means letting go of the dog grooming salon. This has been a bittersweet process. No more grooming means more time to help Josh with the adult family home and more time at home with Carson. Plus, less exhaustion (that's a big plus). It's a win-win. BUT...I spent a lot of energy, physically and emotionally, starting the dog grooming salon. It seemed like a great idea at the time. Hindsight is 20/20. Letting go is what I need to do to be a better wife and mother so that part feels good. It's like going through old boxes of little treasures from your childhood. There are items that really need to be tossed out to make space but it's emotional to do and yet it feels so good once it's done. That's the emotional process I go through each time I have to refer a client out. It's hard to turn people away. I'll be happy when it's all over with.
What I won't miss...nearly getting my hands bit off!
More than ever, I am looking forward to the future with excitement and peace. I know we're on the right path. It's amazing how you think you have everything figured out in life and in a short amount of time it changes! I'm also realizing it's okay not to have everything figured out completely. Maybe it's the whole giving up control to God thing. I know He has it taken care of. God's got it in the bag.